Things are good but so strange. I don’t know up from down, but I think it’s fine as of now.
It’s not the right time. For all I know, he’s probably not even part of the plan. Yet this kid has been swimming in my thoughts for a while, but I truly truly truly just care to be his dear friend. And I am glad of this. It’s difficult. But it’s gotten easier. I care for him so much more as a brother and Godly man than anything else at this moment.
God is teaching me a lot about love this summer from many angles. There have been a number of instances within the past few weeks where I have been stressed and frustrated with people, myself, things happening, who knows. But he’s been calming my heart and its angry beating. He’s teaching me to be patient and to love others to no end. Ugh, how easy and freeing it is to simply love others. To rid yourself of all negativities and filthy thoughts of other people. Ultimately, God is teaching me of his own patience and love for people. I barely have the patience when others disappoint me, so it’s unbelievable how he has such an abundance of grace and love for me when it comes to my own faults. And not just me but everyone.
Unobstructed view of the Mont Blanc at “Le Panoramique” restaurant in Le Brévent, Chamonix, France. (photo by Lu Chien-Ping).
THIRD WHEEL. NOBODY TOLD ME I WOULD BE A THIRD WHEEL TODAY.